Wrapping and packing..... and wondering when it would all end. Brad Mehldau jazzed us through the morning as mounding boxes began to move us out of the house. A dear college friend and I packed the weekend away.... all the while discussing the latest and greatest, the past pains, potential future pains, and most of all, questioning her need for all those darn blenders we were uncovering. I ask you, who needs 5 different blenders........?
The quest of moving into their very own, spacious, customized home.... was met with sad hesitation of giving up their small, one bathroom, quaint cottage. The floor to ceiling windows, thick wood floors, and pleasant aroma of the years will soon be abandoned. With my ever-present optimistic angst to move on to bigger and better.... I naturally expected the same from her. However, in all her bold ambition, dream of great things, and a fellow lover of glamorous ambiance, 'bigger and better' was overshadowed by her grand beginnings in this tiny house.
It amazes me how hard it is to move on.... let go of the old and move on with the new. The new most often if not always being better.... why do we struggle to loosen the grips only to reach for the next? We stagger in the face of uncertainty. The brief moment of free-fall.
The pressing lesson that I have years and years of relearning is that we MUST move on. We must move on to grow. For Mr. and Mrs. Cottage..... their plans of a precious family entitle them to this exciting but hesitant move. For me, though I LOVE my life in Oklahoma, the essence of moving on just may entitle me to a great move to Europe.
Hearts always content to just stay and safely be. The Lord in all His infamous glory pushing us onward, moving us out of our safe cottages, to be met with hesitant-glorious 'bigger and better'.
Moving on to bigger and better, absolutely...... sometimes met with minor longings of the past, absolutely. Trusting that whatever Divine road I take will lead ultimately to bigger and better..... it already has and it will continue. Just a day of memories and a day of moving....... on.
