Her amazing (unrecognized) sense of perfection in life is equally balanced by her socially flawed love for garlic, raw. In the wee hours of the night, I could hear her clicky-clack on the hardwood floors as she prepared for countless parties in her nightgown and little shoes, I would find sweet little notes in my homemade lunches, sandwiches always cut in hearts, her beautiful bows ordained my perfect pony.... and her open-arms would wrap me up after a full day of playing with bugs, snakes, mud, and who knows what else. Always love. Always.
Mothers are there not only to nurture, but to protect. What happens to us when we must protect ourselves? I don't know. I am 24 and still in need of protection. Constant protection. Perhaps that comes with being the youngest of 3 daughters. Perhaps that comes with being human.
One day I too will become a mother and will delightfully fill those nurturing protective shoes. Well, each day we must take steps in filling our own... for ourselves. Though my precious tiny mother does a beautiful job, we, individually are to choose our protective footwear and slip into them deliberately, constantly.
Inspired and re-convicted.... I must sign off from my dear blog. I have loved entertaining you all from the angle of my keys. I have delighted in sharing my unique-genuinely-authentic adventures, overly dramatized view of life, love, and heels. This is my step of protection. Fighting to stand tall, I have succumbed to the vulnerability of those curious eyes I so fear.... fighting to hold onto this one last link. I am releasing. Let the praises be, I am releasing.
I will lay down my pen, slip back into my heels, and grab my new precious son and march on. I think I have this life thing in the bag.... but marching in heels, raising a 4-legged royal blooded son, and meeting Mr. Cardiologist for coffee, now that's a challenge.
A challenge I will start keeping to myself.... or will I?
Now I like a good challenge, but get real! A juicy column just may be in my rotating world of opportunity. After all, 'Socially Flawless' hopefuls, there still is so much to learn!
